My recovery journey seems impossible. I feel like I've lost all power and I'm tired of believing in myself.

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Steps 1-3 = giving up
Steps 4-6 = owning up
Steps 7-9 = cleaning up
Steps 10-12 = growing up.

Sounds like you're in the 1-3 territory and it's time to ask for help. Are you working with a sponsor?

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Know that you cannot help anyone else, or bring anyone else farther than you yourself have come. Sobriety should not be a daily struggle; position yourself to be successful in your journey ( cause it is a journey). Find people who have the same background as yourself, read a lot about sobriety, how to integrate yourself into society, and keep your toolbox with you at all times.

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Surrender. Surrender. Surrender.

Most of us have been where you are right now. It all feels so hopeless. If I can get my but to an AA meeting though, and share about what’s going on, amazing things can happen:
- I get reminded that the journey is “one day at a time”.
- I embrace my powerlessness and rely more heavily on my Higher Power
- And I learn that other people love and believe in me, especially when I can’t do those things for myself.

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That’s where Step 1 comes in.

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I feel your struggle. I really do. I’ve got some time under my belt and can still feel this way at times in my recovery. You admitting where you’re at is the first part in finding a solution. I hope you have people in your life who can help you with this. From my experience, It does get better, as long as I’m willing to put in the effort. Many blessings.

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I understand just where you are coming from. Life on the hamster wheel sucks for sure. I have a 13 year old reason to keep moving forward, and thankfully that's enough for me.

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Sorry to hear that and hope it will be of some comfort that you are not alone. Many many of us have been there. One important realization for me was that I was drinking to escape, escape the world, escape life, escape my own self. I’d suggest giving AA a try. If nothing, download the AA Big Book and just read chapter 1. Know that you’re at a good place, a turning point, the cusp of a breakthrough! DM me if you’d like to chat.

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