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What is your companies medical insurance like?
I think my company has not so good insurance but that’s just compared to friends I know that work down at the docks/port.
Current medical plan - single person.
plan is level 2 out of 3 tiers.
$97 a month blue anthem ppo
$1700 deductible
$4000 out of pocket max
100% preventive covered
80% diagnostic covered AFTER deductible hit
80% prescription covered AFTER $200 deductible hit…
Thinking about having surgery for my knee and this seems costly
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Pause. Breathe. Proceed.
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Acceptance is the answer.
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Every experience like this shows us what doesn't work and softens the ego to powerlessness. You aren't special, learn from it and move on.
If you aren't doing anything differently from here on out, don't expect different results.
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What if it’s not a “spiral”?
A spiral subtly implies that not enough logic or will power was employed that evening. When it comes to the disease of alcoholism, logic and will power simply do not apply.
AA Step 1: “We admitted we were powerless over alcohol— that our lives had become unmanageable.”
Sounds like an evening of powerlessness followed by some unmanageability. But what does Powerlessness mean when it comes to alcohol?
It means that my brain tells me it’s ok to have one or two, but after those one or two, my body kicks in and says I must have more. My brain has an obsession to start drinking, and my body has an allergy that forces it to continue drinking after starting. For me, AA has been the solution to this conundrum that had kept me sick for 20 years.
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Happens to many. Do you want to try staying sober again?
Ah I'm sorry to hear this. I think it's good to own up to it here rather than keeping it a secret to yourself. Are you in the program? Do you have anyone in your life that you're being accountable to?
Don't beat yourself up OP. IF there is anything I have learned it is that beating myself up doesn't make anything better because I can't change what has already been done. Best thing you can do is get back on the wagon and start again. Many of us have been there OP. Hang in there.
If I were you, I would avoid coming clean to my friends at all costs. I would listen to the shame the shapes my core and believe a story about how much they will judge me, and be disappointed and worst of all resigned and pitying toward me before slowly distancing themselves from me, having realized what I loser I am, based on my own admission.
I'd lick my wounds privately, and get back on the wagon, hiding until I got some time under my belt. Then, once I can tell my story from a place where I am fully sober, I can recount my failures as precursors for victory for others to be inspired by, instead of inspiring their scorn and being exiled permanently. I'd give myself a month, and I know I can do it. Despite what anybody thinks of me, the counselors who refused to work with me, cuz addicts are liars and thieves, the social workers who came to take my statement in the hospital and followed up with a warrant to take my newborn into custody, despite the father who died in prison and the mother who died alone, a hoarder stripped of her dignity and the clutter that comforted her, I know better that I have accomplished what I set my mind to, have been addicted to alcohol and quit, cigarettes and quit, and I did it on my own. Each time I fall I get back up, my own shame kicking me toward the finish line, if I can just avoid getting stabbed in the back by the haters.
You got this.
To be clear, my response was meant to highlight the error in that way of thinking. Because yes that is one way of responding, but instead of pointing my finger and shaming someone further for natural reactions to stigmatized experience like Relapse, I let the OP see what those choices look like on me, so that he can see what they look like from a fresh angle, hopefully apply lessons on his own.