This is a serious question - I’m not trying to be rude. What motivates you to stay sober? I’m not happy sober, and I’m not happy drinking. I’m a genuinely shitty person on both sides of the coin. Can anyone else relate?

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My last 24 hours never would have happened if I was still drinking. I started work at 6:30am Friday so I could duck out early and hit the road to get to my cottage. I stayed sober all day Friday, got LOTS done including taking an emergency call from my boss at 4:30. Good thing I was sober to handle that firedrill! Then I drove to my cottage, several hours, listened to the news and podcasts and music. That was peaceful. Got up early this morning, watched the sunrise, worked for two hours, fixed the radio in my truck, changed all the light bulbs in the garage (10 requiring tall ladder, good thing I was sober!) then finding myself with time to spare, decided to put another coat of paint on my living room. I've carried a resentment toward the painter ever since he did a sh*t job, but you know what? I got what I paid for - I was cheap. So rather than complain I got the ladder back out and took care of it. This is also an act of service toward my partner who is also irritated about the paint and at me for hiring the cheap guy. Then worked out for an hour. Now I'm on my porch, watching sunset over the lake. About to head to AA and see my Saturday friends. Probably grab dinner with them after.

If I was drinking, I would have started drinking Friday morning, sat around complaining all day today, fought with my partner, and be full of self hatred for being so lazy.

This was just one day in the life.

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D1 like I said I've gotten better at being okay with people from different walks of life. I have several good relationships with left leaning alcoholics and I trust them, but in early sobriety I wasn't there. I needed a Republican to be able to trust someone enough to do my 4th step. I was just trying to help A1 if something like that was their problem as they mentioned being unable to trust enough to get through the 12 steps. Finding someone who shared my beliefs and background was what I needed to have that trust.

My motivation is to be alive. Life is not perfect, but I made the decision to get sober and will keep doing this. It's much better than the alternative.

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On a bad day when sober I feel uncomfortable. On a bad day after drinking I want to kill myself.

It took a while to find happiness in sobriety, and not every day is a 10 out of 10, but my friends are genuine and I have character. Keeping these things is what motivates me.

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Thank you all for sharing your perspective - I appreciate it.

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How early into sobriety are you? I remember having this feeling for the first month or so.
I have a family history of alcoholism and after struggling with it myself, I decided to get sober and stay sober as a way of changing my family tree. I'm setting an example for all of the nieces and nephews to show them that life is amazing and you don't need drugs or alcohol to enjoy it.

I have this sober day tracker app that forces you to put in a reason for your sobriety to use it.

The 1st reason I put in was "I'm just trying to avoid the worst possible expierences life has to offer" for me those worst experiences were like homelessness, prison, locked in an psych ward by the end of my drinking all of those were becoming real possibilities

Later in my sobriety I updated my reason to "I want to enjoy the best possible expierences life has to offer" as all of a sudden these things that had seemed completely impossible and out of reach suddenly seemed possible.

You’re probably not a shitty person, you just feel shitty all the time and it shows through to others. Focus on that underlying issue alcohol only makes it worse

It took some time, over a year in my case, to finally feel "happy, joyous, and free." Once that happened, I can genuinely say that I am much happier sober than I was for much of my drinking career.

Now that not drinking has become "easy," I've come to realize that I need to consistently work the principles that I learned in AA to stay "happy, joyous, and free."

My sister. We have always been so close since our mom dad at a young age and I pretty much raised her. When she came to me crying (and she is not a crier) and begged me to get help that was what did it for me and she is the reason I will never go back. I coudn't stand seeing her hurting like that.

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