Been fighting my battle with addiction since I was 13, i will be 35 in February 2024 & I relapsed a few days ago. UGH it’s gettin easier to say No to it…Sometimes, but I’m scared I won’t ever be fully able to say No and be clean forever !?!?

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Sorry you're struggling with that, fighting an addiction is a war not a battle remember. Because you were so young when your brain started to have to cope with a substance, it will be a little more challenging, but don't let that discourage you. Have you tried the 12 steps? I know it's not for everyone but it has been super pivotal to helping me start the process.

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I’m 34 and just now getting sober. I totally second the one day at a time approach. Anything else seems too daunting for me and don’t beat yourself up for a relapse. We’re all human and it’s a physically and mentally challenging battle in any addiction. Please message me if you’d like to chat more. You’ve got this 🩷

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“Forever” is a dangerous word when it comes to addiction and recovery. For those folks in a 12-step program, we know the only way to maintain long term sobriety is by approaching life “one day at a time”. Nothing I do today can guarantee sobriety tomorrow, but everything I do today for my recovery helps me stay sober today.

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You will get there are u in meetings a good support network with good steady routine

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Don't give up. You are worthy.

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Someone else said it well. My goal is not to be clean forever. My goal is to stay clean just for today.

Keep going on this journey of recovery. It is worth it. 🖤

Jamie F. 07/03/2022

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As a recovering addict I can relate to the feelings you have. It took me finding my people that would basically hold my hand and walk through the mess with me

My clean date is 8/18/2012. It is possible

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