Almost lost my sobriety the other night. Will have 7 years in June. Glad I didn’t go back out.

Drinking is a slow suicide at this point.

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Good for you OP! What helped/helps you not to give in? Exercising self-control isn't always easy, but you did it and you should be really proud because 7 years is amazing. Every victory builds that confidence and makes the next good choice a little easier too.

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Literal guardian angels! Love to hear it. Thanks for sharing.

What triggered you? Taking steps to get "back on the beam"?

See that’s the thing - I stopped going to mtgs because I no longer enjoyed them.

I’ll go to one tonight.

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What city are you in?

I have a super close buddy who lives in DC and has been sober for a good while. Want me to ask him which meetings he likes? Sometimes we need a change of scenery when the meetings start to get boring. And who knows, maybe you’ll connect with this dude and find some solid fellowship (which for me, is what keeps recovery “fresh”).

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I am so happy to hear that you didn't go back out and didn't take a drink. Way to go. That is something to be proud of OP.

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