I was absolutely destroyed and blindsided with a breakup on New Year’s Day this year. Truly have never felt so discarded and alone.

I spent the first three months doing nothing but grieve and went sober. Hardest months by far, i didn’t skip a day crying for almost two months straight.

The following three months i started going out with my friends more. Planning weekend getaways and prioritizing family and my work relationships.

Someone crosses my path at a dinner during month six. (Cont)

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And i told him from the get go i was coming out of a long term relationship and was focusing on myself this year.

He’s given me more than enough space and time and patience. Now we’re in august, it’s still new, and I’m still cautious about my own healing and jumping in too fast into someone when my own shit hasn’t been healed yet

All that to say, it DOES get better. You WILL meet someone better. You WILL find that better s*x!!! Haha. I always thought i wouldn’t be able to find someone as great as my ex.

It’s a big world out there people. Let yourself grieve, learn to love yourself and learn your non-negotiables…learn how to hold boundaries and remember to laugh the whole way.

Just wanted to share for anyone going through it. February me couldn’t imagine the strides I’ve made and the new potential love I’d find.

Xoxo

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Just experiencing the same thing! I’m amazed at how much better my current man is vs the old

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I needed to read all of this!!!! Thank you so much for sharing!!💙

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So well written! Thank you for sharing and good luck!

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Freshly single and needed to hear this🥹. How beautiful it is to find someone patient as you go through your healing process. Wishing you the best🫶

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Similar to you OP, but wasn’t fully blindsided. Long story short, my 3+ year relationship ended in Jan and a few weeks ago I asked out of my friends I have always been interested in, taking that risk. Since then it’s been really great and am super excited about the future. I never would have thought this would be case even just a few months ago

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I relate to this so much. A toxic 3 year relationship was ended by my toxic ex the day after Valentine’s Day. I felt so discarded, after all the effort I put into him, his betrayals, his love bombing. After that, I was committed to not getting back with him, but he kept lovebombing me on and off until last month. I gave in a few times, and despite trying to take care of myself and working to slowly rebuild my self esteem and social life, being in contact with him was killing all my efforts. I have now fully gone no contact after threatening him with a restraining order, and I’m about to go on a 3 weeks holiday :)
I feel about ‘half way’ through my healing journey. I’m not crying regularly anymore and I feel a bit more in charge of my life. I’m really scared of dating again and being betrayed and heartbroken, but my therapist said I will be ok and I am perfectly capable of choosing the right person - I just need to get to the stage where I trust myself and my instincts. Fingers crossed I also meet someone at some point when I’m ready :)

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Proud of you for drawing the boundary you needed to. Remember the grief can come and go in waves, and remember to take it easy on yourself and your own healing process. Everyone’s timelines are different.

I’m not “ready” to date either. I still don’t feel it. I just felt this connection and told myself to remain curious for what feels good. If this guy were to split paths with me for whatever reason, i would go back to doing what i was before. Focusing on my life, myself, my needs. Perhaps this is the trick and the new chapter? Not actively seeking to date, but leaning into what feels lovely and healthy?

Who knows. Best of luck to you and thank you for sharing ❤️

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