Normal to feel guilty about reaching out to sponsor when struggling emotionally and feeling cravings to drink, with no real risk of picking up a bottle? Having a hard week and the pangs of drinking keep hitting, but I’m not at any real risk. Felt dumb calling my sponsor.
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The drink starts with a think…it’s always ok to reach out when feeling squirrelly.
I've been there myself recently, and for me, it boils down to my ego yet again, wanting to think that it has control and that I dont need help.
The obsession was removed from me some time ago, so when I pick up the phone, it generally has to do with emotional sobriety, which can be even harder to own up to. It's relatively easy to admit being powerless over alcohol, admitting that my life is unmanageable requires a whole new level of humility.
Your sponsor is more likely to have something to say about you not calling, fielding these types of calls is one of the primary functions of an effective sponsor imo.
I don't think it was a dumb reason at all! You know your limits and how you're feeling better than anyone else and there's absolutely nothing wrong with being proactive with your sobriety!
Your sponsor should be the easiest person to call.